Time flies. Too quickly.

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Hullo! Long time no post! O:

It's been an awfully OOC year for me, what with.. one thing or another.. Yeah. This is one year I really tried many many things that I would have laughed at if I were.. younger..

At least, this is four months I tried many things that I wouldn't have dared/bothered to do if I were my old self.

Shall elaborate. A little bit.

1) I'm more optimistic now. A bit more than I was last time.. At least, I stopped looking at all the downsides of life (e.g. class, cca etc) and instead, I focus more on the happy things, and appreciate the smaller things in life, however miniscule they may be. Sure, I'm still a bit loner and all, but hey, there's more to life than worrying about stuff like these right?

2) I think I'm more open now, or at least, I've been forced to talk to people first- against my will of course. But it's a learning experience, and I'm learning to deal with rejection, and learning to just talk to people, whether they want to talk to me a not. I still don't like this, cos I don't want to seem clingy and all, but life's harsh. When you go into a new class without any OG mates or school mates (except one I never talked to before), and when the class is made up of 1/3 guys, 1/3 girls from the same school and 1/3 OG pairs (not exaggerating), it's really really really tough to blend in. Sure, I'm not close to anyone, and I'm still uncomfortable talking with strangers (guys especially) but it's a start.

3) I'm at least trying to be more girl than I was before.. Hahaha that actually came out weird but it's true. I won't elaborate cos it's embarrassing. One thing's for sure though, who wants to go shopping for bags anytime soon? :DDDD

4) I joined choir. Who knew they were so desperate for people? O.o

5) I'M FANGIRLING. HAHAHAHA. This isn't very new news but HAHAHA fangirling is so fun. :D I've always thought that fangirls were crazy and delusional (and I still think so) and the day I fangirl over anyone will be the day I kill myself but what do you know, the day came. And I'm alive, and happier than before.  I guess being in denial's good as it keeps you happy and hopeful (:(: And you know, I know this fangirlism is only temporary, and one day I'll look back at myself and laugh in embarrassment, but I'll enjoy this warm, fuzzy denial until it ends (:
<3KRW 8DDDDD hehehe..

6) (still my favourite number) I think all these signs just show that I'm a normal (albeit introverted) girl who's growing in the right direction.:D Maybe I developed a bit later than normal, and I'm slow with getting into trends, but I'll get there someday :D

Haha I shall end my monologue here.. Have work I'm not planning to do tonight >.<
Just wondering though, have I really changed a lot?

What's the difference between intro and retrospection? :/ my english is epic fail.